I want love

Not the kind of love that comes and goes

I want the good kind of love

The strong kind of love

The love that I never truly had

The moments

They were always so fast

Too fast

I couldn’t enjoy the moments we had

I was always worried about what would happen

Instead of just living in the present

I think I ruined my chances of love

Not forever

But the past one

I did it

I could have given them more chances

I could have held on a little longer

I could have accepted their flaws

But no

I always picture the story book romance

Where everything is wonderful

And all I want to do is be with you

And no one else

And worship you

And be honest with you

I was fed a lie by society

The lie that prince charming will sweep me off my feet

and take all of my worries away

But it never happened

Because my life is not a fairytale.